We muz retain our newbies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Something of which the importance was neva properly highlighted. God trusts us so much He was willing to entrust the lives of these young and ignorant people to us. We, somehow, have the unspoken power of life and death. Every lil thing that we do makes a difference. Whether we like it or not, whether we care about it or not. We need to be faithful...

...a story to tell...

A mother sat on the train with her two sons beside her. Aloof, i watched them from afar, as if watching a foreign film in a cinema, awaiting for the story to unfold. It was a sad story. Or at least that is what i think. Somehow, the elder of the two reminded me of myself.

Maturity..

Something longed for by the naive, yet hated by the maturing. Was it by the shrewd and figurative words spoken or was it by the lost innocence of the child did he draw me to him? He was definitely not a simple child. One who would grow in his thinking at a much faster rate than others. One who would, when everyone else is enjoying the privilege of being naive, committing every possible sin and being able to get away with them, struggle to please himself and others.

I never realised how fast i matured. Or rather, how independent i were. At that young tender age, in that small un-developed body of mine, i went home alone, cooked alone, ate alone and, not to mention, played alone. Pretty sad wasn't it?

I hate maturing early. (This shows how immature i am, still.) I have never had the fun of being a child, and i hate it whenever people discuss about their childhood because deep inside me i know that my childhood never actually existed. We did the same things but what we felt aren't the same. It wasn't by choice, my early development, but nonetheless i embraced it with all i had.

At this point of my life, it seems as if i've lost all directions... My way of thinking is stuck here in my mind at this certain level of maturity, as if waiting for my peers. i'm still maturing. A horrible fact -- that i need to accept -- that implies that the torture's not over yet. How should i proceed? How do i move on? Where do i look upon?

If anyone lacks wisdom, he should ask of the Lord who gives without finding fault.

Yet i would like to view this process of maturity as a beautiful one. A metamorphosis of my mind, emotions, way of thinking, and spirit. A period which, if embraced, would be absolutely pleasant and enjoyable, and if dreaded, would be a drudgery which has to be, somehow, endured till the end.

None of us, sadly, would be matured 'enough'. Not in the near future. Not at all actually. When do we attain maturity at its fullest level? If maturity is ever able to be attained, why would there be setbacks in our lifes to help us grow?

i guess i'll forever be an immatured.

today was great.

haha. anwz... i was sooo..... blessed this xmas. Many converts and many transferring pioneering skh peeps from practically everywhere... haha, hopekids, north grp, and even ntu... yea... all these while, we've secretly blessed them wif converts.... now fer the returns... haha... thanks guys!!!

think my laughter now lyk gettin louder and louder... haha... shall try to control myself... anwz... thank God fer all the stuff dat's been happening in my life... good or bad... struugles or blessings... yea man.

tomms having dinner wif the leaders... haha, it's gonna be FUN!!! heh. so sad you guys can't come. anwz... congrats to dehui and zixin fer joining us fer clm today... haha... bluff you guys dat nida do chicken dance... paiseh ah, then make you guys so worried... haha... quite fun... wonders who's my next victim...

haha... dat daniel arh.... haha....... nvm....

Ride the rainbow to the other side
Catch a falling star and then take a ride
To the river that sings and the clover that
Brings good luck to you, it's all true

If the land of make believe
Is inside your heart it will never leave
There's a golden gate where the fairies all wait
And dancing moons, for you

Close your eyes and you'll be there
Where the mermaids sing as they comb their hair
Like a fountain of gold you can never grow old
Where dreams are made, your love parade...

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It's bOxinG dAy!!!

haha. tomms' dAnieL oNg's bdAe... like him a lOts! haha... hAppiE bdAe daniel ong!!! heh. it's sabbath today... haha... a rest day after pia-ing fer xmas serviceS and carolin... i'll START writing Christmas cards and stuff... haha. paiseh ah...

*a lil clarification... wad you see below, in my prev entry, doesn't mean anything... it's juz a rebuttal fer "it's betta to haf loved and lost than to never have loved at all" in which 'love' refers to teenage love... dose puppy kind. haha.

It's better never to have loved at all
And believe in true love
Than to have loved and lost
And lose hope in love

Haha. hmmm. came back from caroling. Yeah... This is act my firx time leading a group for caroling... myself!!! Haha. Usually dere's always Eelee... if not ah seng to assist and guide me. now, it's me... act i found it kinda scary. because i'm not exactly a very organised and clear-minded person, not to mention experienced... Haha. glad God helped me... And many things happened today..

We went to this hse. Ron was saying, "Hi, we're from Hope of God S'pore and would..."
A lady exclaimed, "What church?!"
"Hope of God S'pore"
That lady screamed (not very loudly) and all attention was on us (some puny kids).
Know sth?! They're ALSO from Hope S'pore!!!!!!! (they were apparently having a hope family party)

Haha. Everyone was elated, and surprised to act meet members of the Hope family.We caroled for them. They were so attentive and supportive. Thank God for them. And act i din expect much from them... But guess what?! They alone gave over 100 bucks!!! Wow!!! haha... So happy... Everyone was very encouraged after singing for that hse. =D

Then on our last hse... We met phyllis!!!!!! and some SAS guys... They were like, "Walmund!! And Sunny...." haha... and they took out the videocam to 'pai' walmund... say wanna bring back to sch show everybody... haha... Then after singing, they asked us to encore!!! And the guys had to stand in the firx row instead!!! Haha... And so. they obediently obeyed. haha. Thank God fer them!!! Cuz think it's quite malu-ating... but they were willing to do it for church building fund... haha. Yeah man... that's the spirit!! Enjoyed myself today. And not to mention puay's parents' hospitality.... We had turkey!! and baked beans and salad... and log cake.. and ice-cream.. and dessert... and lotsa drinks... haha... no wonder the guys were so energized to sing... kiddin... thanks auntie and uncle...

Kenyee's got the sneak preview tix for 'skh of rocks'!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh man! Argh. I wanna watch that show!!!

Shall go and eat moi dinner. Yea...

it's Christmas day....... andi got nth to do... now at least... haha... anw... thank God for all my gers... they're very supportive and enthu about bringing ppl into God's sheep pen.. yea. pEopLe mAtTer tO GOd... they truly do.

Thanks to all hu gave me stuff for christmas. thanx!!! really appreciate them!! =D

This Christmas, many things happened. Or that's wad i think, at least. Sandra's finally received Jesus... hee... really pray that God will work a way out fer her in regards of parental objection. Yea. And got three converts from sn!!!!!!!!! and one from anderson... Haha... i'm gettin excited. Yesterday when eelee told me that there's ppl coming from anderson and sn, i was like 'ahhhhhhh--so excited!!!!!' haha. Yea. and got TWO deyi ppl from hopekids coming over!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHhh.... i'm going to die of over-excitement!!!!! haha... if that's ever possible... heh heh. *relaxes myself and tries in vain to un-excite myself* ... I think God's molding me. I need to pass this test. Peeps' lives are in my hands... It's not a playing matter.

Jesus is for real. The fact that the calender is separated into B.C and A.D shows that Jesus is borned into this world and that He exists!! And He died and rose again, juz so dat we may come and live life wif God.

mErRy cHrisTmas eVeRyBody!!!!!!!!

Yea man... i'm gettin hyper. Only when mid-night's approachin do i get tis hyper feelin.. heh. nvm.... i missed the countdown!!!!! And to think that i missed it becuz i was tokin to luanz over msn...... sigh.... find it so stupid lor.... nvm....

madness man... i wore my contacts inside out. haha. dunno wad to blog liao. shall add on when i think of sth to blog.

Tml caroling... meet at serangoon mrt, 5pm... yea man... thank God fer all your hard work today... can tell that tho you all very tired, but you all gave your best... zhexin amused me alot today. he said so many stupid things.... haha... nvm.

To everyone out dere...

Have yourself a merry little Christmas

Have yourself a merry little christmas,
Let your heart be light
From now on, our troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little christmas,
Make the yule-tide gay,
From now on, our troubles will be miles away

Here were are as in olden days,
Happy golden days of yore.
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us once more.

Through the years we all will be together
If the fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough.
And have yourself a merry little christmas now

joe-han's BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah!!!! I act forgot that you went Laos... and i sent the msg to Laos!!! Or did you juz received it? haha... nvm... feelin happy for you... ya noe, finally embracing optimism. Haha. Must come tmr....... heh. it's christmas!!!!

Tomms' Christmas EVE!!! Why are there you staying at home??? heh. nvm. i think you're feelin melo or wad... or isit simply insecurity or pms?? heh. or you feel awkward ah??? sigh. wanna come then come lor. isit the peeps or wad? me? heh. tired of buggin you liao. use a lot of sms leh... heh heh. but that's beside the point. Man... woman...

i juz went budget shoppin..haha... and i was wearin this huge shirt (my bro's one) and a jumper-skirt... den i act caught so many ppl's attention i start wonderin isit i got pimple on my face not...

Argh. i'm buggin people... haha... buggin buggin.....

tomms carolling....

Go veron's house to practice... meet at 6pm
Den go stayover at dehui's house. Yea man..

^freakin me out!!!!^

Went to jew's blog juz now... she wrote down the lyrics of "if my life's for rent".... Upon closer inspection, i realise that the lyrics matches exactly to the song p10 was playing at that very moment... yes, p10 was playing "if my life's for rent"..... ahhhhhhh........

Den the song ends, and "my immortal" starts playing on p10... dat's when i proceed to read ruizhen's blog... guess wadd?? ruizhen wrote down on her blog the lyrics of "my immortal"!!!!!!! ahhhhh.......... *runs away*

Haha.... this is freaky!!!! haha...

Jesus is the Reason for the Season

Santa lives at the North Pole;
JESUS is everywhere.
Santa rides in a sleigh;
JESUS rides on the wind and walks on the water.
Santa comes but once a year;
JESUS is your ever present help.
Santa fills your stockings with goodies;
JESUS supplies all your needs.
Santa comes down your chimney uninvited;
JESUS stands at your door and knocks.. and then enters your heart.
You have to stand in line to see Santa
JESUS is as close as the mention of His name.
Santa lets you sit on his lap
JESUS lets you rest in His arms.
Santa doesn't know your name, all he can say is "Hi little boy or girl, What's your name?"
JESUS knew our name before we did.Not only does He know our name, He knows our address too.He knows our history and future and He even knows how many hairs are on our heads.
Santa has a belly like a bowl full of jelly
JESUS has a heart full of love.
All Santa can offer is HO HO HO
JESUS offers health, help and hope.
Santa says "You better not cry"
JESUS says "Cast all your cares on me for I care for you.
Santa's little helpers make toys
JESUS makes new life, mends wounded hearts, repairs broken homes and builds mansions.
Santa may make you chuckle but
JESUS gives you joy that is your strength.
While Santa puts gifts under your tree
JESUS became our gift and died on the tree.
Santa is fantasy, a figment of someone's imagination but
Jesus is the Way the Truth and the Life
It's obvious there is really no comparison. We need to remember WHO Christmas is all about. We need to put Christ back in Christmas. Jesus is still the reason for the season.

Argh. sigh.

It's gettin on me... nervousness, anxiety, fear and wad haf you. When's joe-han cumin back? juz a question. *pauses a long while* hey....... you not cumin alph's not cumin either...... *whines in your face -- pauses-- feel horribly disgusted with myself* Argh. Argh. Argh. Sigh. *pauses for a while* Ooi......................................

I really hope you guys could cum. So many people's away... argh.

Dunno wad to blog. feels sick in my gut.